This is my ‘office’ today. Nature. Heaven.
Polishing off quite a few projects that have been ‘nearly done’ for faaaaar too long.
I’ve had years – decades – of projects in the ‘almost there’ stage. I’d get stuck in, do most of the work and grind to a halt at 85% completion. I’d rewrite, edit, rewrite but never finish. What was the blockage? Why did I never finish them?. My standards are high and maybe they were too high because I kept refining the work? Was my mind over-active jumping from one project to the next? Did I have too many ideas that I was confusing myself? Even then, focussing on only one or two projects I still never finished. So what the heck was going on!
I thought I suffered from laziness amplifying into procrastination; avoidance, even to the point, I thought, of Neurodivergence; my high standards crippling me into powerlessness.
Digging deeper, the real reason was I’d inherited patterns, trauma, blockages and limiting beliefs from my ancestors. It was in my DNA, my psyche, my cellular memory. These things can go back a long way, into the Great Great Great Great Great Ancestors (and further too !). Their experiences imprinted so hard without fully processing (i.e. healing) they travelled down the generations, into me.
And in THIS lifetime it’s been healed.
It won’t be passed on to any further generations. It won’t hinder my progress any longer; I can complete these projects whilst dropping all the blame, shame and guilt about ‘what’s wrong with me’
That’s how it works.
Be the person in YOUR life who becomes free of Inherited Limitations aka Generational Trauma.
PS, I’m house and cat sitting; this photo is someone else’s front porch I’m working on. And anyway….you can’t see the laptop screen in that bright sun; I had to go back indoors to work!
Not everything is as it seems…….I’m sure I have a project I’m finishing about that!
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